o: i’m going to go take a nap.
that’s life with o. living the stereotype: picking up money off the floor, eating all the leftovers, finishing the alcohol. Mainly, being poor and craving alcohol. yay for eastern europe.
let’s see how much i’ve progressed in these two years:
Graduated high school Kissed someone. Collected something really stupid. Smoked a cigarette Got so drunk you passed out
Rode every ride at an amusement park
Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone.
Failed a class.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral. Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon
Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone
Been cheated on
Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing
Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Dangerously close to being in jail.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Had a hamster. Degu tho
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. lol Loved someone you shouldn’t have. Used a coloring book over age 12.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Gone surfing in California.
Visited the capital of your state. I’ll count it as country.
forwarded a chain letter
Pet a wild animal. Used a credit card.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS
Madeout with someone Played on a sports team Sexted
Been to NYC
Snuck out of the house
Given a blowjob
swore at a teacher
gone laser tagging
SOON had a boyfriend/girlfriend been on the TV french braided
driven a car
performed in front of an audience been in love had a blonde moment been on a train
seen a ghost
been to Mexico
crashed a car
been kissed in the rain made an 11:11 wish drank alcohol made a mistake
hurt your self on purpose
thought of killing yourself
tried to kill yourself
haha, nice. here’s the old one
yaaay just got my stuff from home (at 1:30 am) and there’s too much of it.
and mum forgot to get me tea.
and all the ramen’s crushed.
i preferred living with two jumpers.
but then again, i’d have bought all of that stuff and then i’d have to bring it back to vilnius with me and then there’d be even MORE stuff in my room.
which is twice as small as i’m used to by now. <3
i am at procrastination lvl 250.
i mean look at my hair:
i look like a papagei and i’m taking selfies.
i am definitely going to graduate.
I couldn’t sleep.
Since I was watching Californication, the last thing I got on my computer before I left home, which, to be frank isn’t as interesting if you’re not stoned, I felt like going for a smoke.
I went out, nearly five o’clock in the morning. I realize, I love it here. I love Leeds. And I’m the person that tends to fall in love really quickly and with a lot of things at once, but I don’t even feel like I’m cheating on my home town because I do feel like home here. Some things do seem strange but on the whole, this city already is familiar to me, because it does feel like Vilnius. I feel like I might belong here more than I do there… The only problem is that all of the people that I belong with are in Vilnius. Well, not anymore, not most of them. And it feels so strange how happy this city makes me and how I don’t have anyone to share that with. And how I’m not even trying to find anyone because all I need I already have. Just… not here.
And the part that sucks the most… how I need to reflect on the 70 pages about visual art that I read today, if I’m not even done reflecting on where I stand in this place and in life on the whole. Freshers should be more than a week. I mean, yeah, I might be hundreds of miles away from home but even the Brits have fairly left there lives behind in some way.
And, actually, I might be lying to myself, because if freshers were more than a week, I doubt I’d be looking for people, I think I might be out on my own with several rolls of tobacco exploring the city and trying to let it become an even bigger part of me… (and that wouldn’t make my lungs happy. believe me, my lungs ain’t happy as it is…)
Does this mean, that I actually am homesick? I really don’t know, I don’t understand and maybe me bugging myself with work I must do is just sort of a way to keep myself from actually moving on to here and losing all touch with what I’ve left. Because i left it on purpose. I really did want to leave. And to be frank, there’s no turning back because there, quite frankly is nothing to come back to. I know my best friend is boarding the plane right about now to leave for Oxford and he’s the last one to leave. And that’s that. Officially all of us have moved on.
And even though that is sad to realize, that is what happened. And that is what I have to cope with.
And this might be the only blog post where I’m not hating on the world and feel just generally depressed and need to relieve my pain somewhere. I guess that this is bittersweet happiness I’m actually talking about here.
leeds is an amazing city.
12 year old me would be so proud of the 19 year old me actually living in Yorkshire.
it’s ultimate british.
they mistook me for an american.
Lamplight by Bombay Bicycle Club
This album is perfect for my last days in Vilnius.
packing my bag is too much of a responsibility.
starting school is too much of a responsibility.